Shame on you!

I stood up and owned up to what I have said. No point in denying a fact. Home wreckers are after all Home wreckers.. They carry this attitude wherever they go. They enjoy watching family ties break and only care for their own stupid families that worship nothing but money. Time will tell, one day you all will pay with the prices what you have did.

Relationship.. great reading for the day

Found this good article shared by my lovely sister. It goes like this :

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVERjust happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression 'the labor of love.'
Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship
WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make'
love.

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.
Remember always this:

'God determines who walks into your life.It is up to you to decide who you let to walk away,who you let to stay, and who you refuse to let go.

How can I almost let it slipped from my mind ???

Getting wiser while aging...

It is a popular belief that you will get wiser as you age. Well, at least the saying has a profounding effect on me. I do realize that, as I get older, things started to get clearer in my head. Vision's clear so is the mind, not to mention the ability to analyze the reality vs. fantasy or I shall call it dream. It's nice to dream and I dreamt a lot especially during my younger years, those ignorant while innocent youthful mind that I once had. Looking back, while standing at where I am today, I could say there are things that I am glad I've achieved today. But there were also certain decisions that I wish I'd consult or at least shared with someone wiser if I were to decide one more time. Yeah I know, the "If only" remark is never applicable to us human in this lifetime. I'll just have to make a lemonade out of lemons despite asking for a bowl of juicy strawberries from God. Remember, its always half a glass Full or the other way round. Life goes on, the earth will continue rotating whether I like it or not. Better fall into the groves and dance in the rain.

So far so good

Havent had the mood to pen down something in my blog, since the last post about dad's departure. Well, all I could say is dad's leaving us suddenly (in a mattter of 1 month) does leave me with a huge 'wake up call' on my health and lifestyle. I realized that without a good health, it would be pointless for one no matter how much of cash you have in your bank. And most of it, I keep remind myself that now I have a young baby to take care I could no longer make excuses for not taking good care of myself. With a strong determenation, I made my first step to take up self taught yoga lesson, 2x/week 30 mins each session at home. I start to feel more energetic even a long exhausting day. Not to mention a huge and dramatic change to my body. Toned and defined figure started to emerge from a once plump and full of toxid body. All I can say is, I love the brand new me, less temperenmental, healthier, fitter and prettier :).

May day

Today is the day that I wish I never have to wake up to. Ching texted me saying that the buldge protuding from dad's waist is cancerous and doc has confirmed it has spreaded. My poor daddy is in hospital and need to wait for 2 weeks for the final report. He is already being paralyzed after the stroke attack 2 years ago, and now comes another tsunami for us. Why is God so unfair to him? I wish I could help him endure his suffering. Though he didnt really take good care of us and mom when we were young, he is still our loving dad. I gotto stay positive and pray for the best to happen. Dad, be strong. I am coming back for you ! Gambate!!!

Why dont you talk straight to me???

Over a pot of black chicken soup for him and porridge for my baby, I ended up being classified as 'selfish' DIL. What could have been the worst news that is going to dampen your jolly mood on a beautiful Friday morning? I have promised my man a bowl of black chicken soup several years ago, and until a few weeks back I finally took the first step and prepared a pot of black chicken soup (with chinese herbs). I didnt offer to my MIL in particular coz I felt so inferior and shy to introduce my first attempt on this turned out to be not so nice soup. End up? I kena condemmned of not sharing. Well, I do admit partly its my mistake, because I didnt offer...

So what happen with the porridge for Derrick? My mistake again, as selfish DIL... Apparently I was under the impression that I only cooked for my own baby and neglect the PRINCESS BABY (my SIL's millionaire daughter) of the household and to make it worst of all, we are sharing the same cooker. I remembered clearly I OFFERED her the porridge several times in front of my MIL. And I only use the cooker twice perweek and thats when I am not working, and my MIL has the full access to the cooker 5 fulld days a week. To top it up, she doesnt really cook porridge for her PRINCESS GRANDBABY that often and why she has to complain that I am using the cooker and only cook for my son which is her GRANDSON as well?????

I know I am still fuming when I am typing all these words, why would she deliberately want to cook when I cook in the weekend which is only 2 days of the week??? And I dont really occupy the cooker whole day for god sake. And I did offer her.. I am indeed fuming, and wish to explode just like the recent errupting volcanoes. I know very well that the solution will be cook more and ask them if they want or not for both the not so tasty black chicken soup and porridge. In this case I would not make my man in difficult position. I know this is the best solution. But I just have the urge to get another brand new cooker to show them that hey, I am not too poor to get another cooker.. which is still within my means... Its soooooo sooo difficult to live with in law.. after all they didnt spend your first 30 yrs together with you..

27th Apr 2010... the very day he called me Mama...

Yes, I heard him alright. At first I thought I heard it wrongly when he uttered Mama....And to assure me that I am not hearing it wrongly, he said it again on the next night, :). My boy finally said it after months of waiting. My feelings?? I would say there's a sudden leap of heartbeat as this is the moment that I've been waiting and finally it just sounded so sweet to hear your angel calling for you. How I wish he would stay forever in such a happy, cheerful, curious, adventurous and healthy stage. Mommy just cant get enough of you D.. :)