May day

Today is the day that I wish I never have to wake up to. Ching texted me saying that the buldge protuding from dad's waist is cancerous and doc has confirmed it has spreaded. My poor daddy is in hospital and need to wait for 2 weeks for the final report. He is already being paralyzed after the stroke attack 2 years ago, and now comes another tsunami for us. Why is God so unfair to him? I wish I could help him endure his suffering. Though he didnt really take good care of us and mom when we were young, he is still our loving dad. I gotto stay positive and pray for the best to happen. Dad, be strong. I am coming back for you ! Gambate!!!

Why dont you talk straight to me???

Over a pot of black chicken soup for him and porridge for my baby, I ended up being classified as 'selfish' DIL. What could have been the worst news that is going to dampen your jolly mood on a beautiful Friday morning? I have promised my man a bowl of black chicken soup several years ago, and until a few weeks back I finally took the first step and prepared a pot of black chicken soup (with chinese herbs). I didnt offer to my MIL in particular coz I felt so inferior and shy to introduce my first attempt on this turned out to be not so nice soup. End up? I kena condemmned of not sharing. Well, I do admit partly its my mistake, because I didnt offer...

So what happen with the porridge for Derrick? My mistake again, as selfish DIL... Apparently I was under the impression that I only cooked for my own baby and neglect the PRINCESS BABY (my SIL's millionaire daughter) of the household and to make it worst of all, we are sharing the same cooker. I remembered clearly I OFFERED her the porridge several times in front of my MIL. And I only use the cooker twice perweek and thats when I am not working, and my MIL has the full access to the cooker 5 fulld days a week. To top it up, she doesnt really cook porridge for her PRINCESS GRANDBABY that often and why she has to complain that I am using the cooker and only cook for my son which is her GRANDSON as well?????

I know I am still fuming when I am typing all these words, why would she deliberately want to cook when I cook in the weekend which is only 2 days of the week??? And I dont really occupy the cooker whole day for god sake. And I did offer her.. I am indeed fuming, and wish to explode just like the recent errupting volcanoes. I know very well that the solution will be cook more and ask them if they want or not for both the not so tasty black chicken soup and porridge. In this case I would not make my man in difficult position. I know this is the best solution. But I just have the urge to get another brand new cooker to show them that hey, I am not too poor to get another cooker.. which is still within my means... Its soooooo sooo difficult to live with in law.. after all they didnt spend your first 30 yrs together with you..

27th Apr 2010... the very day he called me Mama...

Yes, I heard him alright. At first I thought I heard it wrongly when he uttered Mama....And to assure me that I am not hearing it wrongly, he said it again on the next night, :). My boy finally said it after months of waiting. My feelings?? I would say there's a sudden leap of heartbeat as this is the moment that I've been waiting and finally it just sounded so sweet to hear your angel calling for you. How I wish he would stay forever in such a happy, cheerful, curious, adventurous and healthy stage. Mommy just cant get enough of you D.. :)

Further updates on my lil bud..

Spotted his first pairs of upper Central Insicors last weekend. He will soon have 4 cute tooties to be exact. I am starting to imagine the pain of his killer bites. I think the teething episode is making my son grouchy and feeling irritating and he just need to find something to bite. He especially likes to bite on the edge of my pillow and sometimes grab my hands to taste his bites. Night sleep also didnt went on well now. I think I woke up 3 times last night alone just to pat him back to sleep. Wish this could end soon, and it means getting the remaining 16 teeths popping out. On the positive note though, Derrick is getting good at clicking his tongue and will click after you. This is hilarious especially from a nine months ol'

Month#9

Updates on my lil angel development at month#9:

1)Started to show understanding on commands and instructions. He will clap his hands, wave his hands and shows signs of milk-milk if you ask him so...
2)Hungers for attention and separation anxiety signs getting worse. He will cry when he sees you leaving the room, or sometimes just a short distance away from him.
3)Experts in gross and fine motor skill. He can stand while holding onto something, and sometimes even with another hand clutching an object.
4)His emotional bud is developing. I can tell it coz he frowns and tears build up in the eyes when you raise your voice at him.
5)Call papa, dada, aiyeee...ankoo, kkkkkk, JUST no MAMA...:(

I enjoyed thorougly time spent with Derrick. He understands games and jokes so completely that he really liften up your spirits to join the fun with him. I will always cherish and appreciate this gift of Heaven to me, as he completes my life with joy and laughter. I look forward to pick him up every working day as I cant wait to spend more and more time with him before he grows up.

Month#8 progress

Derrick is progressing well with his hand-eye coordination. He understands instruction and will happilly clap his hands when you instructed him so. No problem with right hand-left foot or vice versa movement when he is all on four mode. He is a happy go lucky boy and laugh easily at mommy or daddy's funny expression. He's also an avid fan of simple kid games like peekaboo, song singing, or baby tickling. I love my boy more and more and wish to hear him call mommy... He has started calling his papa at month#6.. when is mommy turn??? Below were some shots taken while on family outing at mengkuang dam.

Another milestone met, way to go baby!

My boy has finally fully recovered from his flu+running nose post CNY. He is also slowly recovering from dark circle under the eyes after I found out that he could be developing allergy towards dust, fur, etc. Quick update on his latest development: Great improvement in both fine and gross motor skills like able to pass object from one hand to another hand at ease, crawling at faster rate now. He loves ball, and will go chasing after the ball, uses his little hands to grasp the ball while trying to bounce it. He has no problem standing up while holding onto something, and followed by biting the next closest object that he sees. I admit its more tiring for me now, as he no longer sits or lye still waiting for mommy to command his limited mobility then. He also wakes up regularly for night feeding now as I think he needs more energy to support his growing mobility. Watching my baby grows bit by bit everyday brings joy and marvels into my life. His little achievement or progress from tossing over, mini push-ups, leg bouncing, grasping objects, standing ups, crawling, laugh at your expressions and cry when you raise your voice at him taught me a great deal about life. Baby doesnt stop learning, and falling down or hitting his head against the floor or hard surface does not stop their attempt to achive the next development milestone. He would cry a bit, but after a while of soothing, he is on his way to 'redo & retest' his capability :). We as adult, should live our life in such a way too be it our career, relationship, belief and dream. My Derrick opens up my eyes through the journey of a baby and the ups and downs along his progress. Mommy is damn proud of you darling ;). Attached are a few of his videos to be shared: